The summer of 1992 significantly changed my life. When I was 21, I found a lump on my right testicle that turned out be cancer. During the next three months I would endure the removal of one of my testicles, major exploratory surgery to my abdomen, the discovery that the cancer had spread, weeks in the hospital, and two rounds of chemotherapy. All in all, it was the most painful, terrifying thing I have ever experienced. It took me over four years to admit that. I thought it would be weak of me to acknowledge my fears, but I realize that I have never been stronger. This is an excerpt of the paper I wrote for my senior project. It serves as a window into my experience with testicular cancer, the anguish I continued to feel after treatment, and what I am doing to heal emotionally from what was the most difficult time in my life. It is the culmination of months of reflection, discussion, and research.